I left something information out. The workbooks is from my community service board. It helps myself for self improvement.
is left… to salvage things from being poor skitzopheenic alcholic that has shamed me…
My thinking isn't as clear…. These days all I ever really knew was….
This…. Life that seems to be hard to cope….
I know with out a mental Illness maybe people forget there mistakes and go on…
I'm not sure…
I seem to remember continuesly on a daily basis
Things I couldn't control I am maybe in God's eyes I am not responsible for…
My thoughts race…
What parable of the sead… changed as it grew….
Some was weads… others was beautiful wild flower s blooming…
That seemed to die around high noon…
I guess some was a tree… bushes with brier….
And thistles thorns….
Some was feed… for the animals and people….
I think I reinstate I hope I am not what I never
Wanted to be….
These thoughts that changed as time proceeds…
Or I looked back to remember….my life…
What I think now was different than today….
Some I overcomed…
But I guess what grew...in it's place...was what's left of just me…. A branch broke…
Or shoots of leaves….
I'm not sure if I had a choice to be a sead…
I would like to do as Jesus says to do…. and bear fruit….
I know I made mistakes….
But I am ok... I hope….
I'm don't want to be the things that got worse… or I over came… but can't get over…
From the pain...of what I didn't have faith… of a grain... I did try cause when I got sick with my illness… Jesus was coming back… it seemed to change… when he didn't return… and I didn't have a chance to get to know him….
I know how a snowball turns…
I hope I feel better today…
Amen
Cindy Young
Pg 14.
Sunday June 18If I am dillagent I wont miss important events..Watching for the Lord's return or the change in the weather.I can't control the snow...I can make a differance when I know how to dress for the occasion... Dont wear shoes that are uncomfortable if I got plansI put my trust in Jesus..And I'll watch the traffic lights dont put myself in harms waysTaking chance s on a scratch off lottery ticket ....I prayed for I bless the trees ground fruit.. Sky children young old that others take in vain god dammning everything...I want to change...Im sorry Jesus for the things I made... Good and badI love you Jesus why ...I live if I'm caught unaware from drinking or going out of my mind...I look responsible for Me. Actions... If I wake up from a night drinkingIm not sure if its jails hospitals homeless shelters or the streets its bad enough I f I died....or some one else...I can try to control my thoughts voice out bursts... Dear God . I love you Jesus...Amen....Thats what I hope to strive for gentleness and caution...Peace..meek...amen by cindy young Sorry, I like to read what some of the writers wrote. Cindy
I also trust in Jesus. He is my dearest Friend. I talk with Him every day. The books I am working on right now are about Him as a Boy. The Series is JESUS WAS YOUR AGE. I have the book Papa Didn't Understand published with Author House, and I have JESUS THE HELPER about ready to go to the publisher. The Series has 5 books. I have written the books and I am working on the pictures.
Sorry I hit the wrong button. I am hoping to get some more read on the Author Learning Center before I go much farther. I can only get on the computer at the library so I can only work when they are open. Doris Sholly